depression, fighting, family, yelling, obsession with blood??
Question:
i've lived with my grandparents since i was 9, and they fight alot. I'm depressed because they yell at me in return, and i'm always in my room writing or crying because of all the screaming.
now i've developed an obsession with seeing my own blood. i'm cutting myself constantly. deeper and deeper across my upper legs. and nomatter what i do to stop, i always come back to cutting sooner or later....
please help, i have nowhere to turn now.
Answers:
oh sweetheart....you need to stop cutting. i know it seems practical, and i know it seems like it helps but take it from some one whos been down that road and seen people too: its not worth it. i assure, you you do not need to cut your beautiful skin. please, please please don't. If you have the urge to...you have to put your mind to not do it and put your mind to something creative. write. draw. paint. play music...cook...anything. Above all.. you need to talk to someone ANYONE. it seems like you might have a lot of trust issues but once you open up to some one (prefebly an adult) you can get some help. i assure you that once you do, you will feel much much better. as for anything else you've listed, i dont know how to help but i hope that someone else on here does so please please take care and let us know how it goes...take care... in my prayers & much love.
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Self mutilation is a way of releasing the pain. I would say to call the Child Protection Services in your area. Call 911… or just show up at the police station. It’s unhealthy to be in that environment. And NO-ONE should go through what you are experiencing especially alone. They can help you.
Understand one thing – It’s not your fault. You didn’t choose to be placed in this situation. With that said you can make a choice… Choose to be a victim or Choose to get help.
PS – Has your Step-Father been reported on having sex with a 7 year old. That is very serious and needs to be if it hasn’t. That poor girl will have problems all of her life. It enrages me that adults treat children in such this way!
WOW thats a sad story but i say that u go to a close friend and talk about it cuz i know wut u mean ma friend did that and belive it or not if u talk to sumone or just cry on there shoulder knowing that there there for u that works out or u can seek a physologist<<<< i hope i spelled that rite u can talk to me if u want just let me kno....
Just stop..it just hurts you even more.. look, i have parents who drink constantly and it drives me nuts..and my dad doesnt even give 2 shits for me..he doesnt talk to me, see me, and i never heard a I LOVE YOU ever from him thats why i started..Just stop before its too late cause someone special will come to you and change your entire life..
be strong to yourself ****
You need to see a counsellor.
Baby, you need to see a counselor, start with the one at your school.
you need to call your local mental health facility before you really hurt yourself or someone else. Look under mental health in the yellow pages and call the nuber and thell them your concern to set up an appointment. Trust me, it will help. There is nothing wrong with going there and talking to someone so don't let societies status quo stop you. Just do it!
Oh my goodness. Get yourself to a safer place. If necessary, go to a behavorial health center in a hospital. You will be able to talk to someone abou these horrors. They will put you on medication that you may not like, but they will also see to it that you get put in a proper place. If they don't they are scum.
Go to a nearest women's shelter.
I seriously believe that you need counselling and medication and get the heck away from your family. Telephone child protective services and tell them what you told us and ask to be placed elsewhere for your own protection. You are dealing with too much mental anguish for a teenager. Get help now
before you decide to do something more drastic than cutting.
go to a psycologist, this isnt the right forum for a question like this, theres too many douches who will only attack you and make jokes. email me sometime if u need to vent about something
zach919@gmail.com
Your body is beggin for exercise! Exercise makes the body produce chemicals that make ALL OF US feel better. When we do not exercise, the body forces other ways to exercise. Most people it is eating (the chewing is the exercise). For you it is cutting.
Have your grandparents take you to Home Depot and buy a couple of 5 gallon pails with lids and a concrete construction block.
Put some water in the pails, put the lids back on. Pick up the pails, and HOLD them for 60 seconds. Keep your elbows bent a bit, your knees bent a bit, and bend over a bit. Do this every OTHER day. Once a week, add some more water to the pails. This exercise tightens up the muscles in your body, making you stronger. AND by holding the pails you learn to focus. Problems cannot live in a mind that is focused.
Place the concrete block on the floor by your bed. Holes facing sideways! When you wake up, wearing shoes, step up and down on the concrete block for 5-15 minutes. And before you go to bed, step up and down on the concrete block for 5-15 minutes. This exercise makes your metabolism go faster so you DEFINITELY will feel better.
i grew up with a lot of chaos in my household. a lot of anxiety. a lot of not wanting to go to sleep at night afraid i might wake up to my parents' screaming. i won't try to say my experiences are the same or worse or better than yours, but i can tell you that , if you find an outlet, things will get better as you get older.
please find someone to talk to. a friend. a counselor. someone you can trust. your local health department can get you free counseling, i'm sure. but please seek out someone before you hurt yourself more. your family has hurt you enough. don't do it to yourself.
bleed baby
It seems to me that you might have an advantage speaking to a school counselor in total confidence.. It sounds like you have a disfunctional family and you could benefit from talking to a family therapist.. It doesn't mean your crazy, it just means that it will help you figure out were all your rage is coming from.
When I was 18, I went through a similar situation, I was already graduated and away from my family but I still felt the rage and pain from it all. I took time to find a counselor (a lot of counties will provide one too you at no cost) and I talked out my whole life story. It gave me a sense of satisfaction to get it all off my chest. To be able to talk to someone who was a stranger and one that wouldn't judge me as a bad person or yell at me for what ever I had to say. I was able to start healing the day I found a good counselor. I want to ask you to please stop hurting yourself. You should do somthing more productive with your time. When I am feeling down, I get creative, I write poems (even if they turn out silly), I cook, I do somthing that calms me down. You also need to remember, that your family's issues, are not your fault, so you shouln't persecute yourself just because they are disfunctional.. Just by you writing this questions shows that you have a good head on your shoulders and that gives you a chance to be able to live a good life..I know from personal experience. You are a strong person and I am glad to see you taking your first step to getting help.. I wish you all the best of luck!
1. You already took the first step by asking for help. Depending on your age, I would move out. Go to a friend's house. Anywhere, but there. That is an unhealthy living condition and it will not get better with you staying there.
2. Go see a Psychiatrist. Yes i spelled that wrong. Tell him or her about your problems and the need to cut yourself. With time and patience, things will start to calm down.
If you need any other help, or someone to talk to, email me at battosai_20@yahoo.com
Don't hesitate to do so. Even if you just need someone to talk to. I've been through the same thing, but not to the point of cutting myself. I have inflicted bodily harm such as throwing myself down stairs or jumping into glass.
~El-Matto
I believe you may be suffering from Post Traumatic Stress disorder.
I have posted a site that can give you some answers to your questions.
And you do have some place to turn too.
http://www.ptsdalliance.org/
It sounds to me like you are the only person in your family who sees the reality of how messed up your family is..and everyone else is acting like it's not even happening. Cutting yourself is a serious problem. To me it sounds like it's a way for you to try to scream out for help. Sounds like you've tried to talk about it nobody HEARS you. I can totally relate to that. When I hit 40 years old I hit an emotional snag in my life and all my childhood disfunction came bubbling up to the surface. It sucked. I wanted to die... but I can't even die right. jeez.. I went to a counselor and gave her the short version (45 minutes) of how f***ed up my family is. After all that talking she looked at me and said.. "You are 40 years old and you have NEVER been treated for depression?" She couldn't believe it. She told me something that really made sense. As we are growing up and our brains are physically forming the snapses get formed by our environment so that when we get older our brains are just gonna be like that. I highly recommend that you get professional help.
Listen to the tiny voice way down deep inside you that is trying to get heard.. the one that's saying oh so tiny... "I want to live" That is the only voice that is telling you the truth. Maybe go talk to a counselor at school.. or keep it out of school by calling the local mental health department and finding out where you can go to get help. You may end up needing temporary meds for treatment to get yourself balanced out emotionally. Boy..your note just reminds me of me.. You have no idea. PLEASE find a human being in your area who you can physically see (a professional) who can help you work through your pain. Cutting yourself on the outside is an attempt to quiet the internal pain.. But the internal pain is gonna keep coming back until you seek help. Good luck..and God Bless.. I'll be praying for you!!
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