Suicide! This is serious. (Why would anyone humiliate themselves like this otherwise?)?

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I keep on having these crazy images in my head of horrible things like beating myself to death or slitting my throat and I'm really just hanging on by a thread. I sit here immobile for fear of doing something devastating the moment I get up. I'm already trying to see a therapist but that will take a few weeks because of money problems. I really have no idea why I'm posting this except that I'm really desperate and manic and there's no way I'm going downstairs and talking to my dad about this. There's no one to call...all of my friends are away in other cities or just very busy. I really don't want to kill myself, I know it's not the answer...but these thoughts just invade my mind and try to possess me. This was sudden, it's been slowly creeping into my head for years, but I've never felt this panicked. I feel like I might actually do something if I don't calm myself down.
Help! Just tell me I'm stupid or something. I'll get mad and then spend my energy bitching about you.

Answers:
OK - SLOW DOWN for a minute my friend - and I do not say "my friend" casually - give me a few moments to type you a message ok ?

I'm a Dad - I have daughters your age - and sometimes the day-to-day pressures of life pull me into my own little world and I don't connect with then as well as I should and you can share a roof with someone and lose touch and communication slowly gets awkward - but that does not mean that love is gone - you need to reach out to your Dad - I think he might surprise you - believe me - he does not want something bad to happen to you .... more is coming ...hang on ....

OK - truth is we ALL go through what you're experiencing (I have been plagued by violent nightmares all my life and i'm 48 now) - sadness and depression touch many of us - for some it is managable -for others it is overwhelming - but the thing you must realize is that these things that are in your head - your dreams - your fears - your overwhelming feelings - as real as they seem to you, they are not necessarily reality - you may not see it but love may be no further away than your Dad - help may be no further away than a priest or minister at a church - a caring shoulder no further away than that nice guy who is looking at you in math class - but you need to reach out. I have never met you - I will never meet you - but I care enough and am touched enough by what you have written to do my best to urge you PLEASE step back from the edge and take a good look at those people into whose arms you can find comfort. As cruel as the world is, caring is as common as the grass if you give those people - your Dad, that priest, that guy, your girlfriend, a chance - don't give up on them and they won't give up on you. I give you my word, the last thought that will go through my mind tonight as I put my head on my pillow will be prayer that God stays close to you and sends you an angel in some form - and this hope that you will do the sensible thing and seek help rather than give in to depair. In Christ's name I ask this.

Email me anytime - strangerbarry@yahoo.com

please dont do it. call a hotline. I dont know what to say... but whatever is wrong now, is not worth missing out on life.

please talk to someone.

Call this number; it's toll free (no cost)

1-800-784-2433

You need to talk to someone about this and even think about getting help. There is help and hope.

If money is tight, you might want to think about getting St. John's Wart. It does work.

Well I don't think you are stupid. I have been there years ago I tried and I know what you feel like inside. It would be great if you could talk to your parents but if you don't feel you can do that you should still talk with someone.
http://suicidehotlines.com/ is a free number and they can give you answers on what steps to take to stop you from ending your precious life.

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