This is bad! What can I do?

Question: well, I'm 17, suffer severe depression, slight OCD and anxiety. I have been a self harmer and think about suicide daily, but lately i have also been thinking a lot about murder. I am scared that I might hurt someone or even kill them, I have no-one in mind, I mean just random people I don't know! I am getting help (but it isn't really helping, and i can't talk to them about this), i am a day patient at a hospital - school. I have regular therapy but all the attention i'm getting is making me really angry and impulsive! I don't want to become a murderer but i cant stop thinking about it! if i tell anyone, they will probably send me to a really horrible psych ward!!! any suggestions? please help me!

Answers:
You need professional help and there is none around here. Why would you want to kill somebody? Think about their lives, family etc. Be careful or you may be sorry if you make a really bad mistake, you will ruin your life and you're to young for this. Make some friends that will be close to you. They will help you get over this much easily.
Stay safe!

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You should be being treated with different meds. I am no shrink, but I have dealt with this stuff long enough. Look into MAOI's o something in the new class of Anti-psychotics.... they have a lot less side effects than they used to. I know that word "antipsychotic" sounds bad, but I have been on a host of meds since I was 14(12 years ago)
I'm in college and live on my own. Life still happens when you actually need the meds....the concept is to even out chemicals that a wacked. If they are messing with the wrong chemicals it only makes things worse. S you rally should tell someone who can help. Just do it when you are relatively calm. If you freak out in one way or another while you "reach out" people are more likely to not react the way you want them to.
Until then: I would say write, or run, or whatever makes you feel a release without being bad for oyu or somebody else at the same time.
It is good that you are aware of these things..... Have you ever heard somebody say that crazy people don't know they are crazy???? Sometimes it would be nice to be oblivioius to it, I know, ....but since you are aware of it you should take advantage of the control that gives you.
good luck

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Right, you are suffering from intrusive thoughts, a strand of OCD, which is alot more common than you might think. I used to have really horrible intrusive thoughts when I was 18, which scared the living daylights out of me. I thought I'd never be free of them, but with the help of my doctor and some medication I've been pretty much free of them ever since, although it's still something I have to cope with on a daily basis. Just to reassure you, in a book I read re. intrusive thoughts and mothers that were terrified they might deliberately harm their baby, or people like you, that thought that might murder somebody, not ONE person actually committed the act they were so petrified of. I thought I was going to be sectioned when I admitted what I was so scared of, but my doctor was very cool about it, as were my family. SO PLEASE DON'T WORRY. I know you may feel horribly scared, but it will be OK.

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