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i am 26 yrs old, married with 2 children. sometime i can go days with being happy.then sometimes i wake up sad, or angry.or i m happy one minute then in a second im crying or angry. i will even pick a fight with my husband for no reason.sometimes (alot) they turn out to be verbally or physical abuse then i snap out of it aplogizing and even thinking why did i do that? i dont abuse my children. when im in one of my "moods" i want to be alone.sometimes wanting to just die.but whem im feeling "fine" death scares me.10 yrs ago i was in a horrible accident, i was the driver, but my cousin and friend were killed.(not intoxicated, just kids having fun).i went through alot.(personal). but i feel im over it. i dont see that triggering my moods. i hate going through this. i dont want it to ruin my marriage. my husband has told me a few times when i attack him that im f***** crazy. and wonder am i. need some advise

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I would agree with the people who suggested PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) .. though perhaps it doesn't need to be labelled as that, to go through such an awful experience and lose your cousin and your friend .. plus you were driving .. I'm wondering if there are still emotional wounds inside that haven't healed. Sometimes we work on healing and it gets into our head - intellectually - but doesn't quite get absorbed in our heart - emotionally. Perhaps somewhere inside you feel a sense of guilt. I'm a survivor of child abuse, and we feel guilt over the abuse, over not stopping it, etc. even though now as adults we KNOW that we have nothing to feel guilty about, that it wasn't our fault .. but it takes a lot to really FEEL this knowledge.

I think maybe it could be the reason for your moods, specifically BECAUSE you say "I feel I'm over it" and because you bring it up at all. If you were really over it, it wouldn't have popped into your mind as a possibility or even as a non-possibility. I believe you instincts are telling you where the pain lies. The trigger is not that experience of the accident, but day-to-day things that trouble or tire or worry you, these are the triggers that waken the old pain. The accident experience isn't the trigger, it's what GETS triggered, and the moods are the resulting feelings/behaviours of that.

Why not see a good therapist and tell her/him you'd like to process the feelings you have today about that experience, and find some awareness understanding and closure about it. What have you got to lose? You have anger, fear, sadness . if this turns out to be the reason, you can leave that baggage behind and move towards a happier way of living. I hope you'll consider it. You ARE depressed, and the best way to help yourself is to get some good help. If for some reason you don't have access to a therapist, please try a support group or a counselor, or at least a trusted person who will listen supportively and non-judmentally. I run a group online (free and anonymous) for survivors of childhood abuse/trauma, and if nothing else, you can always join us. It helps to talk and be listened to. I've put the link to my group below if you want.

Take care of yourself and don't worry, you will get the help you need, and feel better.

Other Answers:
borderline or bi-polar. see a doctor.

A friend of mine had this same problem, she went to her doctor and diagnosed her with severe depression and abandonment. She is now on anti-depressents and is doign great, her boyfriend and her are doing great. maybe that can help a little. :-) can you say BIPOLER..say it with me Bi.POLAR..very good.seriously you might wana get checked you could be skitso(sp)..

could be a sign of depression..

Sounds like depression. Sick medical help and get on some anti depressants

PTSD

Go see a Dr about it. Sometimes symptoms show up years later and you may think that you are over it.

Just go talk to a Physician, they can lead you in the next direction

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Have you been to counseling for all that you have been through? I think that seeing a qualified professional can help you to better deal with the range of the emotions that you are feeling as a result of the trauma that you have suffered earlier in your life. While you are dealing with these difficult issues and feelings, it may be a good idea to ask your doctor to give you an antidepressant so that your symptoms can be interrupted, and you can better cope with the emotions and stresses in your life. Best of luck to you and I hope you get help soon. You deserve to be happy in your life.

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