Im suicidial with a dissisociative disorder, can someone help me?
Question:
I am not afraid of death, but i am terribly afraid of living> its tearing me up, I fear i have Derealization disorder and livign with it drives me made, and makes me thibnk too much, which worries me, makes me sick, and makes me really want to end all my pain.
All my dreams feel real, and when i wake its like im livign in this constant fog or blur, that im watching a very boring movie, or that im a ghost, its monotonous and even scary.
what should i do, i have absolutly no one to talk to to even get help or pills or anything.
i harte this, i hate this all, i just wish there would be somethign to shut my mind up and give me some peace.
Answers:
I have a friend who is 38 an she has felt this way her entire life-meds, therapy, hospitalization- nothing has worked. She gets through each day at a time and focuses on her art to help calm and empty her mind. Do you write, journal, paint, draw, or express your feelings in any way (other than talking to people)?
Finding a really good therapist can be helpful- if money is an issue, there are social service agencies that can hook you up with free help. You don't have to keep living like this.
someday everything will be be better..trust me and dont kill yourself please don't...there are people who love you i'm sure of it.there can't be rainbows without rain
First, don't do anything bad.
Call 1-800-SUICIDE, they should be able to refer you to a mental health professional to get you some help.
Because there is a complete psychosis when disassociation is complete language will degenerate and words mean another meaning. That means that talking and writing notes is a waste of time. For the severely depressed it is almost totally imperative to see the two groups in life an accept that you are an outcast. Learn the rules for greeting and the second vocabulary and find one friend who is an outcast too. The winners will never show you how they live so don't try to please them. Eventually you will see the patterns of life emerge and you will see you need to support the bi-polars and be happy.
You need to seek help immedietly. There will always be someone willing to listen, perhaps a doctor? or maybe a Psychologist or Counsellor. These three people can really help you on the path to road to recovery. Im not sure where you're from but no doubt there will be some sort of depression/suicide organisations that will help you through this rough part.
If you want to talk I can help.
Have you been to a doctor or is this self-diagnosis?
Yeah! life's a bummer.
Especially if you let yourself think about that all the time.
Did you watch the interview with Tammy-Faye Baker the other night. Wow! What a courageous woman.
She had terminal cancer. And she died the next day.
But there she was on television, her body ravaged by cancer, in constant pain that the medicine no longer helped.
And she smiled through it all.
Her husband said not once did she lose hope. She ever even cheered him up when she woke up each morning.
Now there was a person who had every right to be depressed.
She chose not to be. She saw every reason to be happy.
She was blessed with a son and daughter and a husband who loved her.
There is someone to copy. Get a video of her interview with Larry King. It should give you a jolt of hope.
Read more about why people like her choose to live happily.
http://themeaningisyou.com
It is awful when death seems like a better alternative than life. It was like that for me everyday as well. Now it's like that less days. Why can't you ask a doc for help? It's taken ten years of on and off suffering, and I guess I can expect more, but don't give up on anti-depressents, anti-psychotics, mood stabilizers. Don't give up, honey.
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