Don't know where to turn/ feel like dying?
Question:
Today I spoke to my therapist about how I feel at the end of my rope and want to end my life. She helped me focus on some coping skills but it all doesn't seem to be working. I feel at my lowest right now and I know a lot of people will say to go to the ER but if I do then they will send me to the psych unit and my husband will be furious.
My husband is asleep and I'm alone at home and feel as if I'm alone in the world. My bipolar has gotten worse because of early menopause symptoms and I can't take hormones because breast cancer runs in my family. My therapist went out of town so I can't call her.I feel so alone and I'm sorry but I want to die.
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Rebecca, I am sitting beside you right now holding your hand. Do you feel it? I am pleading with you not to end your life. You do have a future and there is a plan awaiting your very next step. There are those in the world who need you today and tomorrow even if it's just your smile to help them make it through another day. You are needed and you are loved. All will be well.
Take all of your troubles right now and put them in a backpack on your back. Now take off the backpack and give it to me. I will throw all of your burdens and cares away for you. Enjoy your life in the simplest of ways. The smell of coffee, the beautiful sky, a gentle breeze. One step at a time, one day at a time, and smile for me because I need you to.
its ok just breath
you should meditate and find someone it helps, maybe you're just stressed or something
Do you have any family you can call? If not, wake up your husband...wouldn't you want him to wake you if the tables were turned?
I love you, Rebecca. We all love you. You're not alone.
Pray, Just Pray. It really works:)
You should go to the ER. I mean your husband will be furious because you seek help? Does he think it's for attention? Taking care of yourself is the best way to take care of your family also.
Killing yourself... or having your husband be mad. Well... I take having him mad. Sometimes when we feel alone we ignore all the people around us that could be good support. Worrying about bothering them and what not, but I bet there's any number of people that would be by your side if you would only ask.
Good luck and take care of yourself.
Exercise like crazy, watch a good movie, read a book, try to get some well deserved rest in a room by yourself. be like a kid and put your head phones on lay on the couch with your feet up on the back of the couch flip your feet around. Do something to take your mind off wanting to die.
I know it does not feel like it, but this feeling will pass. Please call a friend or family member or wake your husband or say a prayer to be delivered from your despair. Don't be afraid that your husband will be angry, he will be much angrier with him self if he loses you. He is probably just frustrated because he wants you to be better, but doesn't know how.
i'm only 17 but i know this feeling. i may not be able to identify with some of the specific problems, such as finances, that you mentioned, but i definitely know the feeling of wanting to die.
think carefully. do you have ANYONE you feel like you could talk to? trusted friends? anyone at all who might know what you're going through? sometimes it helps a little to just talk and have somebody there who understands...
we all feel like that at some point. listen ladie my life is so messed up. i am at the border of missery, financial decay, and my health is not so good either, i am also surrounded by people i hate. sometimes i just want to end it. but listen lady all u need to do is face ur problems and think to yourself that you are a strong woman and that you have endured a lot of hardships. i know you feel realy down, but you have the strengh to deal with them, you have alwais had. so take charge and you will see that your problems are not so bad, you just gotta take em down one at a time. and talk to you husband, if he loves u he will not let u crumble. and well if he does then tell him that i say he is a big d..ouche and that he is not man enough to stick by the woman he swore to protect and care for. if he dont stick out for you then he is not a real man.
You are not alone. I have problems with depression and sometimes feel the same way. Talking with someone is a good idea but if that's not possible, maybe write down your thoughts. Good and bad but try to think of things you are grateful for and tell yourself positive things...these feelings should pass. Reading something may help to stop dwelling on the negative and focus on something else.
Dont! What you mess up they are going to have to try to fix up. You won't have a good time either way. I would say go to the ER anyway. If I were your husband I would rather deal with that than not being able to deal with the alternative. Hang in there. Do what is best for you and that is get some help.
You are not alone. Have you called the girls and boys town national hot line they are not just for teenagers.
they can help and just remember you are not alone and god bless
you might feel alone, but trust me when i say that you're not. my mom had many of the same issues that you do. i say "had" because she died earlier this year to do complications caused by medication. when she was alive she often felt just as you described. she had tried many things to help her get through her problems, but with little progress. the only thing she never tried was seeking help from God. ever since i started going to church and reading the bible my life has change dramatically in a positive way. i tried to get my mom to understand this, but in the end ran out of chances. i pray that you don't let your chance run out.
The best thing to do is to talk to someone..anyone.a friend a relative. There is a hotline you can call anytime 24 hours to talk to someone if you want, the number is...
1-800-SUICIDE or 1-800-784-2433
The National Hotline is open 24 hours a day, every day.
please call... they wont try to hospitalize you or anything, they might recommend that you go to the hospital, but they will also help you out and maybe come up with some things you can do to cope for now.
also, you can try this link for more hotlines and websites...
http://www.sprc.org/featured_resources/l...
don't give up! you can do it! you can pull through! I know how you feel..I REALLY KNOW. and I know it's tough. not just tough but a horrible feeling all over. You can overcome this.
And, if yo happen to go to your local ER, they won't necessarily hospitalize you. Try talking to the hospital intake rep and tell them how you are feeling and your situation with your doctor being out of town and that you really just need to talk to someone. And if they do end up hospitalizing you...thats better than you killing yourself, i think he would be more upset if you did end up killing yourself than if you sought the help you needed!
good luck! stay strong! dont give up!
I don't believe that you really want to die. I think you just want the pain to go away and you think that dying is the only way to deal with it. It's not.
First, you need to stop the negative self-dialogue. Cognitive therapy teaches that it is our thoughts that cause our emotions/feelings. It is not true that you are home alone. Your husband is there sleeping. Stop telling yourself that you want to die. If I told myself the things that you are telling yourself, I would feel like dying too. You can get through this. I know, because I did. Go to www.drphil.com (then click on "Advice", and find the information about Eliminating Negative Self Dialogue. You, and only you, are responsible for your thoughts. It is your thoughts that are doing you in. Find a good book to read. . . preferably a funny one. Turn on the comedy channel. Get out of your own head.
I took those hormones that you said you are not taking and I got cancer 3 times. I finally had a double mastectomy. You are not alone. There are many like you out here in the world. Get into a support group for people with the same problem you have. You must be an active participant in your own recovery. You will not be doing yourself a favor if you sit at your computer and continue to feel sorry for yourself. Wallowing in self-pity never got me anywhere, and I don't know of anyone else who succeeded at mastering their disease by lying down & bellying up. Courage is not the absense of fear, but the mastery over it. Take charge of your own recovery.
you are not alone in this world, there are many people who feel the same way as you do. you have a medical problem medication can help, butr you also have to have faith in yourself.financial problems,we all have them now and then,they will clear up,health problems will also clear up with time,unless they are terminal, which you have not said and menopause will pass also.you are aperson of worth your husband seems to have a fear of you being ill, this is his problem not yours you must not let him stop you from receiving the medical attention you need,I am sure if you needed to have your tonsils removed he wouldn't stop you so don't let him stop you from receiving the mental health care that you need.you must put yourself first in this case...goodluck you will be well again.
Your husband probably feels responsible for your troubles because your happiness means he is doing something right. He doesn't want to fail you. You say there are troubles in your marriage, is that based entirely on your "disease"? I would ask him how he feels when you don't feel well and assure him he is not the cause...providing he is not the cause. You do need to discuss this because the durancy of menopause is long and it affects both of you. Financial concerns are something we all can relate to...sometimes, you have to choose what comes first. Pay what's most important first, call to make payment arrangements for the other and decide if you really need that last thing. Life is about living...and you seem to be giving away enough of yourself, you're forgetting what matters most. Bills are always going to be there. You have to take care of you. Communicate with your husband. If he won't listen, keep in touch with us. We all relate one way or the other. I will continue to read these answers and you are welcome to e-mail me.
are you afiliated with any church? Some have ministers that care about people and would help you seek an answer to your situation.
Ok i am going to tell you about the 12 step program Although it orginally started with alcoholics, it can work in a lot of situations.
1. We are powerless over our disease and our lives have become unmanageable.
Sound like you are there right now. You realize that the disease is bigger than you are. It is wrecking your life. Other things are out of your control. menopause, hormone therapy, your husband, therapist out of town. Actually this is a good place to be. You realize that you have a problem and you ar helpless to control it.
2. We believe that a power greater than ourselves can restore us to sanity.
This is where you need to go next. God as you understand him. Nothing like what you hear in Church, just admit that the disease is bigger than you are and your helpless. And that a greater power than you cares about you and can help you get your life back.
Trust me this stuff does work. I know I used the 12 steps to control my bipolar and recovery from meth addiction
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