How can i stop it?

Question:

when i was growing up my dad used to hit me i dont mean the odd slap on the bum i mean proper hit me and i stoped seeing him when i was 13 and always said i would never be like him and now ive started treating my partner like s**t he upsets me i want to hurt him i just feel like hitting him and today i did it wasnt like proper hit but he was holding my arms so i couldnt hit him and i dug all my nails in i hate myself for it inever wanted to hurt him but i have and its not fair on him and all i can see is me turning out like my dad and i dont want that i feel like leaving him so i cant hurt him anymore and at the moment i even feel like getting rid of myself because i have hurt him how can i stop this i dont want to be be like my dad i really dont and i love my partner so much but when i get angry its like i cant stop myself and i know its not right and i hate myself i really do!

Answers:
If you were diabetic would you feel you had to be stronger rather than take insulin? You are suffering from a previous injury, whether it is something visible or not, and you need to get treatment for it. As long as you don't get help, you are letting your father win by remaining crippled mentally. And suicide would be the ultimate victory for him! Hang on to your wonderful partner and get some help for your injury.

I think this is a normal reaction to Childhood abuse. & I think your partner is very understanding , since he is still witj you.

I don't think that the best answer is to leave him.

The best think to do is to seek help. Get some counselling. I think that both you & your partner should see a counseller, becaus he will help you to get over it & also help your partner to understand your emotional state.

& till then please avoid hitting anyone.
All the best.

How can i stop it?

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