What should I do?

Question:

Last night I almost attempted suicide. I was going to cut down the veins in my wrists. After a second or two I decided to stop, and it just bled a lot. I think I should get some help, I have some bad problems. I have schizophrenia, OCD, and depression. My mom tells me to just 'block it out'. She won't take me to the mental clinic.

My mom never listens to me. She yells at me for cutting myself. (I cut when I feel depressed, not because of OCD) She doesn't understand that I have serious problems and I need help. A part of me really did want to die last night, but I think it was mostly a cry for help. It didn't help. It just made things worse.

I don't have any friends to live for. My mom says she cares, but she doesn't show it. She leaves for days at a time very often. She didn't even call on my birthday. She blames everything on me.

I'm 17 years old and I don't have a car. My mom won't take me to the hospital. I don't have any money because my mom thinks I'll spend it on weed.

Answers:
PLEASE PLEASE CALL THIS NUMBER 1-800-SUICIDE it is a hot line.
Child Abuse Hotline 1-800-932-0313
Crisis Intervention Suicide Prevention 1-800-994-2555
I don't know you hun but let me tell you I do understand what you are going through and if you need someone to talk to e-mail at paula1970orellana@embarq.com.

call a suicide help line they can help go onto google and look one up PLEASE live for me my freind triedto kill herslf i cant let that happen to anyone else PLEASE

where is your dad in all of this. make him take u there. or if he says no, contact a relative or neighbor to take you. your mom should be the one who helps you through it but seek help from others anyways. with the car and money thing, i dont blame your mom for not giving you money cuz my mom didnt used to give my bro money when he did drugs. and he got better and he hasnt touched one drug since. just keep a good track record.

Please find someone else to help you besides your mom, at 17 I believe you have more rights than you think. Call a crisis hotline, call a friends parent, teacher, counselor, minister, e-mail me if you need to. Ill find you some help. Things will get better, with help and it is out there.

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