I have this urge to cut again...?

Question:

Around last December I started to cut myself. Not because I hate my life, I'm not depressed or anything like that. First, it was just to see if it made me feel good. It did. I started out with play piercing. That was fun, but I wanted to do something a little more painful, so I tried cutting. The pain and watching my blood drip down my leg feels good and kinda hot. I only cut my thighs because I know how much easier it is to accidentally kill yourself if you cut your arms. Anyway, I stopped around February though, but all of a sudden I have this urger to cut myself. Would I still be considered by medical terms a self-harmer? You know, the kind that needs to be on Zoloft and Prozac. Or am I just a masochist?

Answers:
i use to cut.. like 3 years ago. I hated life, me, and everyone around me. Then i found out how good it felt to just slice my arms. I started out just on my shoulders basically scratching at my skin with a safety pin. For a while this helped but then i needed more and more pain to make me happy. It was then i began slicing my arms and wrist with broken glass, razors, anything i could find. Cutting was all that i had. It was all i lived for. I was already livin in a home for troubled teens so there wasnt that much more they could do for me except to send me to counslors and give me tons of meds but this didnt work i was still so sad and angry and my cuttn got worse. then one day i got to thinkn about how carzy cuttn really is. the only thing i was doin was makin things worse and destroyn my skin.(i still have about 10 huge scars on each of my arms) so right then i decided i really wanted to quit and it wasnt easy but i did. However about a year after i quit i did it once again. i ahd got to a point in my life again where i just couldnt take things and i needed to cut but luckly i stopped this time b4 it took over. even to this very day eventhough i havnt cut in like 1 1/2 years when life gets hard i get urges to cut that are so strong i can barely resist cuttin. sometimes i think that even when im 60 or 70 im still gonna wont to just rip my skin open when somethin goes wrong. but u just have to not give in and find other things to do that dont hurt u. good luck

Perhaps you are crying out for attention...If you are not depressed..or don't think you are..that may be the key. Delusions are great, but they don't last. Are you sure this is how you want to live..think about it..10 years from now - look in the mirror..not so hot anymore...disgusting and sad.

Blood and flesh can be very exciting to a certain extent. ie. eating rare steak, liking your blood when you have a cut, pinching your skin. its all part of life. you are not a self-harmer in any way, unless you start going too deep, like amputation lol.

I no exactly what you mean..the enjoyment of watching the blood drip down your leg... unfortunately i no... some ppl just like pain and we are 2 of them. usuallly those who get addicted are the ones that cut to ease feelings of anger or depression. anyone who hurts themselves intentionally is considered a self-harmer. whether or not u need to be on depression meds is a different story. some ppl can overcome cutting w/o meds, while others need them. dont get yourself caught in this trap...once you relapse it is so much harder to quit the second time... i havent managed to yet...

My sister suffers from deperssion, and has gone through phases where she has cut and scratched herself. It usually happens when her depression is flaring up badly. she describes it as needing to feel something, as feeling so numb and miserable that the pain is actually a relief, letting her know that she can feel something.

I've never done it myself, so all I can do is tell you what she's told me. If her situation sounds like yours, you might consider seeking help for depression. If you're perfectly happy as you are, though, and it's not causing any problems, then I can't see that there's any need to worry about it, other than making sure you don't bleed too much, and using antibiotic cream on your cuts (thigh infections can be deadly due to the large veins located there).

It also might be Obsessive-Compulsive disorder. I have it, and while I don't cut myself, I go through phases where I need to pluck hair. OCD isn't dangerous all by itself, so if what you're doing is a problem, get help, and if it's not then leave it.

No matter what, you should let someone know what you're doing. Having a second pair of eyes watching out can help, to tell you if you're getting worse, or to watch for other signs of a problem. I hope this helps some!

wanting to cause physical harm to yourself is not normal.
you should consider making an appt to visit with a psychologist or psychiatrist.
there are main arteries in your legs too.
there is potential to seriously harm yourself by cutting ...
please stop and seek help before you cut something and really harm yourself and it isn't reversible.

I wansnt goin to answer this but some of the answers i have read are totally worng
i'm a self harmer, but recovering
not all self harmers need to go on meds, will power is enough sometimes
if you hurt yourself intensionally, ie cut yourself, then yes you are a self harmer
i do not believe that you are happy if you self harm
my psychologist told me that self harmers arent happy people
if you are self harming but dont feel low, then you should really ask yourself why are you actaully doing this?
you should go see your doctor, but that is your choice
you must have some doubt in your mind about whether its a good thing to do, or you would not have posted this
all the best x

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