I think that my insomnia is a result of my paranoia?

Question:

I am so paranoid... it stresses me out just thinking about how paranoid I am. I cannot sleep because I have this on-going fear that someone is going to come through my bedroom window, kidnap me, rape me, and brutally murder me. I'm practically TERRIFIED. I'm also scared that I'm going to go blind. The thought of going blind pops up in my head 24/7... I'm afraid of walking outside because I'm scared of getting kidnap, and I hate being home alone. I check locks and windows like 10x and I keep on thinking that I heard someone climbing through my brother's window. I lock myself in my room for the majority of the year.

I should add that I went through a traumatic experience when I was nine. I opened my apartment door and these men came in and robbed us, tied my brother in the bathroom and beat him up while me and three other people were hostages in another bathroom for four hours. I think that this is when I started to get paranoid.

I can't afford therapy! Should I tell my mother? I'm 17.

Answers:
You know what? I have the same thing, and until I saw this, I thought that I was a freak. You are not alone - I've been an insomniac for 12 years, with exactly the same problem.

I started getting paranoid about this when I hit puberty. My insomnia stems from the fact that I was abused by my dad as a kid, so subconsciously, I don't feel safe anywhere... I didn't realise this until a couple of years ago. DON'T do what I did, which was to get hooked on sleeping pills.

Please seek help, speak to your mother. Perhaps you could make use of school guidance people, web resources, telephone helplines, or various forms of counselling. I know I need to do this too.

Thanks for being so incredibly honest. I hope I didn't traumatise you with my history - I just thought it might help a tiny bit to know that you are not alone.

yes, talk to your mother...or go to school counseling...
your paranoid definitely results in insomnia...you have so many things in your mind and you keep thinking about it...that makes you can't sleep...
i can't sleep either if i have so many things in my head...but once i resolve those negative thoughts, i can sleep like a baby...
i think your case really-really needs a big help...talk to your mother...don't let yourself drowning in your own problems...

i remember that there was a very big riot in my city (cruel and evil...the attack christians and minority...i'm catholic myself...i'm scared)...i really scared at that time...but i manage it well...sometimes, we have to prepare for bad things, but if the preparation shows that we are too paranoid...then we need help...

Get help hun

that must be horrible ..i am so sorry that happened to you Tell your mum she will help
if she does not know how can she help.?

Wildamb knows how bad you feel that means you are not alone ...she survived so will you. That's a heavy burden
you have been carrying around for too long.

if you have survived that ordeal you have inner strength
you will get through it somehow. I expect you always will be able to deal with the stuff that life flings at you now and again

good luck

I think that my insomnia is a result of my paranoia?

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