How can I cope with anorexia returning?
Question:
Recently, every time I go to eat I end up taking a bite or two
and I become completely disgusted with the fact I'm eating, and I become completely overwhelmed... I end up just sitting staring at my food and my mind races thinking of how fat I'm getting and how many calories are in my food...
I've been trying to ignore it, and finish eating, but it's getting harder and harder... Recently I've been puking sometimes because I feel so disgusted (3 times in the last week)...
I also find myself constantly looking in the mirror, any chance I get im checking to see if I look like I've gained weight... And the next time I go to eat something the image of my body the last time i looked in a mirror comes into my head and I cant eat...
I'm really starting to struggle to eat and I'm scared I'll fall back into anorexia again...
Answers:
I feel the same way. I feel like I am dipping into a relapse. If you see a doctor, ask him/her about medication. It's not the answer for everyone, but antidepressants help me when I feel a relapse coming on. It's a long, hard road. There will be ups and downs. You just need to fight it. And trust me, I know what a fight it can be..knowing your views are distorted, but not being able to do anything about it. Just keep telling yourself how beautiful and healthy you are now.
Stay strong and fight it. I know it's impossible for forget the amount of calories in everything, especially with calorie content being broad casted everywhere now, but ignore it. Eat a healthy amount, and try not to think anything else of it. And see a doctor to help as well...I know it's hard to swallow your pride and ask for help, especially chemical help, but it could save your life.
Best of luck<3
I dated a girl who suffered from anorexia. You know you have a problem, which is very good, but you have to stay on top of it. Once you stretch your stomach back out you'll be able to eat regularly. You just have to eat a lot, until you throw up, and just keep eating. Gradually eat more each day.
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Just start smoking pot and you will love to eat!! I'm only kidding, just remember it's a disease and you have to be strong minded and you live your life don't let anorexia live your life for you.. and you are not fat you are perfect.
Anorexia, like other disorders, is related to inner emotional pain. Go back to facing & dealing with the pain (by yourself, with loved ones, or in therapy), and the symptoms will go away, again.
Good luck!
Please call the Eating Disorders Awareness and Prevention hotline. They know what you're going through and they might even be able to help you find help in your area. It's worth trying, if you really want to get better. Their number is: (800) 931-2237. Please try. I want you to get better. It is worth it.
The worst thing about this disease is that no one knows how to treat it. Because the physical manifestations of the disorder can be so drastic, people always want to shove things down your throat to treat the physical problems in place of dealing with the real issue, which is a mental one.
I have had this for many years and sometimes I still relapse a little bit. I just keep reminding myself how unhealthy it is, how it is not something I want my children to do (and they will if they see it enough), and I just tell myself it's not worth it.
If mirrors are helping to cause your relapses, I would say get rid of them all exept a small facial mirror to do your hair and makeup. Don't even get anywhere near a scale.
You are starting into bulimic habits as well, which can have even worse effects than the anorexia. I have not had bulimia but I have a friend who had it.
Above all, you have to learn to love yourself and be happy with yourself. I know how easy it is to let your anxiety overtake you about "how fat you might get if..." But, that's kind of like saying you might "shoot your eye out" if you have a pellet gun. It's totally hypothetical.
I would recommend seeing a nutritionalist. If you can keep from telling them about your eating disorders that would be best at least to start off with, otherwise you know what will happen what with how many protein shakes they want you to drink all day long. Just go see a nutritionalist and tell them you want to start eating more healthy and if at all possible, you want to avoid anything where you have to count calories (unless you already do that which is hard to stop doing as well).
Unfortunately, you have to rely mostly on yourself in cases of eating disorders. Keep giving yourself positive reinforcement and just take it one day at a time or one meal or snack at a time if those are steps you have to take. One day, you'll look back and wonder how you ever went so long between eating. If you can find a support group that has a very strict policy on holding each other accountable that would be a great avenue to take.
I wish you the very best of luck.
Brightest Blessings,
BFQ
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