What is wrong with me?

Question:

No matter what I do I feel stuck. I recently moved to a completely new place in order to gain a new perspective. I am going to attend school but I cannot get any help paying for it. My school and the federal aid won't help me. I don't want my parents help even though they offer. I got a new good job and I like the people I work with but I feel my attitude slipping everyday. I am grateful for the opportunity to have a job. I just get bored with 'push/pull repeat' because I feel so much more capable than that. I have played many instruments and love to be creative but instead of being proud of myself for it, I feel like it's pointless. I am fairly attractive but I am surprised when I see myself in the mirror because my self image is so low. I am afraid of people, Especially people I am attracted to. I dream about meeting the right girl but I don't let anyone get close to me. I feel like all I can do is go to work and sleep and stay in my room and stare at the wall. Hopeless.

Answers:
Go to a local burn unit at a Children's Hospital and take a look around. See adversity first hand. Then realize two things:

1. Alway accept help if it benefits you.
2. Try and figure out who you are. Don't let it fall in your lap. Work for it.

Its like if you were describing me.

we both need help

it sounds like you are depressed, you should go to the doctor and tell them the way you are feeling. good luck

You sound like you want to be hopeless. Maybe you should spend some time with people who have a reason to be (the homeless, terminally ill, people in nursing homes) and it will help you appreciate your own life more. What do you mean federal aid won't help you, do you have a drug conviction or something? If your parents offer you help and you won't take it, you can't really feel sorry for yourself for not being able to pay for school.

It's possible that you are depressed. Talk to a doctor. Start exercising to release endorphins and ensure you diet is fairly healthy. Do you have a pet - that might help too. Good luck!

What might help is letting someone actually get close to you. You already said you're trying to keep a positive perspective so I can see you're willing to try to fix this. A lot of people would just live the rest of their days like that but you're actually making an effort so congratulations, that's the first step.

Its not pointless! If your good at something you should practice more at it! Youd get paid for something thats NOT pointless. I once felt this way and trust me.. I didnt even wanna get up lol but then i realized its cause I was doing things i liked and was okay.. but i didnt LOVE it. when you like something its a matter of time before you get tired of it. You should be doing something in the art industry that way you wont get bored! Youd wake up every morning excited to go to work. And being excited to go to work would also raise your self esteem. and as hard as this sounds instead of staying in your room try going out to places like the mall, cafe, get to interact with people! then you could just meet that special girl ^_~. well this is i could say lol! good luck!!♥

It sounds like you are depressed. Do you have any friends? Sometimes when you talk to other people they can help put you in a better mood. Have you tried exercise? I always get in good spirits after a good workout. Maybe you should talk to a professional. Good luck

What is wrong with me?

Health Resources