Eating disorder?im 18 yr old male im 5'91/2 & im 138lbs...i used to b around 188lbs...i lost around 42lbs in 5
weeks from very strict diet & exercise..i used to eat what i wanted at times but still tried to eat healthy too..i USED to be very muscular even eatin around 2000-3000cals/day..i worked out 5-6 days a week & had about 14% body fat.i started feeling for some reason i was fat so i started running 2miles/day and biking 6..i have had probs feeling guilty b4 when i tried to lose weight purging but now it is really bad...i worry about everything i eat all the time...if it has more than 5 grams of fat or 10 grams of carbs i freak &wont eat it...im so obsessed about diet now im miserable ive lost all my muscle mass now im lean, but i look so much smaller...& ive lost all my strength ive gained from weight lifting..i feel so guilty and dont enjoy eating at all anymore..even b4 when i splurged it was hard for me 2 gain bc i worked out so much.now i dont enjoy any food bc im so worried ill get fat..yet i had a great body before even enjoying not so healthy food...how can i stop throwing up?
help me..i definatly need help..im very much scared?
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I am pretty much in the exact same problem as you, and I must praise your courage for coming forward. The first step is admitting you have a problem, then doing something about it. I know its hard to think otherwise, but looking at your post you seem to be very much concerned on more unpractical issues like your weight, calories etc. Trust me, you need to be concerning on why you are thinking and doing what your doing, and how to change your feelings about food and your body image. Eating disorders are a problem with control, not actually food and weight, but weight and food is just an expression of the underlying problems the sufferers hav never dealt with. When you realised you couldnt eat without feeling guilty, what do you think was happening for you at that time? perhaps things were going on around you that you felt you had no control and you didnt like what was happening. The next step to do is to go to a doctor and ask for advice and help. I didnt seek help or advice for a long time, and after so much knowledge of eating disorders, I have knowledge that the longer and eating is left untreated, the harder and less succesful treatment will be. the earliest its hit, the easier it will be to dissapear.I wish i seeked help at the earliest oppurtunity. Trust me mate, you dont want to be like this for years. Also your current eating disorder behaviours can have a bad inpact on your heart. Self induced vomiting can cause low electrolytes, especially potassium, which can cause an irrugular heart beat, which is VERY SERIOUS. alot of people...very kind, beautiful people, have lost their lives from their illness-obsession with weight and food. feel free to message me, il advice if needed mate
take good care
slowly work your way back up. eat very little at a time, about 7-8 times a day or even less, you know like a cracker, or a half an apple about 5-6 times a day.
take down all your mirrors to stop judging yourself.
slowly get back into wieght lifting.
hope that helped, i hope you get help and get better!
It is a good thing that you have recognized your problem and realized that you need professional help, that is the first step to recovery. Know that you are not alone, this will help, join support groups and such, there are chat rooms online that are support groups for people with eating disorders. Good luck to you, I hope you overcome your eating disorder and get on your way to a healthy life.
Please answer: Therapy and feelings of hopelessness?
try edreferral.com, mirror-mirror.org, nationaleatingdisorders.org, eatingdisorders.about.com,
What is one entry you so desperately want, that you know you can never bring back?
I have never had an eating problem.
I like to eat, but I eat until I get bored with the taste.
I don't like overeating because of the discomfort I feel.
I eat enough to live. I also walk 30 minutes each day. My dogs take me.
Eating disorders mystify me. I wish that I understood.
Some years ago I loved a singer. She starved to death rather than eat because it would make her too fat. She was 32.
I think it comes down to where you focus your attention. You can focus on your disorders, which we all have in one form or another, or on your gifts.
In any event if you can explain it to me please do.
What is your motivation? How do you get yourself to become bulimic? How do you convince yourself that you will find hope and happiness there?
It seems to me that you are putting a lot of effort into not eating. You chose this for yourself? This is how you contribute to the world? Or is it just about you?
I'm still trying to understand. Is your focus just on your own feelings? Does anyone else care about you and what about their love and feelings?
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What do you believe you get out of having the particular body you are trying to achieve?
See clearly if your eating or lack thereof gets you whatever it is you believe it does.
See deep into the belief. It's necessary to suspend judgment.
When the belief is seen through as a false promise, you can easily drop the obsession.
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