Why???
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i hate my family, i feel like they are constantly overprotecting and oppressing me...my mind comes up with such awful wishes like death and murder just so i can be free of them.
at the same time, i never want them to leave me, i want them to be there forever.i love them so much and would kill anyone who hurt even just their feelings, like i've had ideas to do such in the past.
i loathe myself just as equal.i'm forever dreaming of possible and impossible escapes from my mind and body..to be someone else, somewhere else...but i don't know where dreams end and reality could begin to exist.
i just can't understand why i feel this way...i thought it was only possible to one of me, to the most expressive evil inside me, that is one of my 13 self created personalities, but it seems to be all of them, so that seems to make me as a person EVIL...yet at the same time i worry for the...
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im the same way with my family at one point im just want all of them to GO AWAY but then at the same time i think about how much i would miss them... minus my brother normally but sometimes i do loveish w/e him. but its like my parents are way over protective and then sometimes they wont let me do stuff and they dont even have a reason for it its like they want to make my life a living hell and all that!
Because as annoying as they are.they are blood.
Didnt read the whole question, just how can you love and hate your family at the same time. im guessing because you love them so much if they do anything to upset you you feel hate for them. there is a thin line between love and hate and that saying is true. you can only truely hate someone if you truely love them! (n most cases)
HMMMM . I think you need serious phsycological help actually ... Not seeking answers on here..
U know what they say there is a fine line between love & hate !!
seriously go and see a shrink
I would talk to your psychiatrist about it, if you are currently under one's care. If you have 13 personalities, I urge you to seek treatment so that you can get rid of these feelings. Feelings of death and murder are extreme and need to be addressed.
You tolerate your family or your family tolerate you because blood is thicker than water.
TOLERATION IS THE KEY!
I can't think of anyone who doesn't feel like this towards their family! It sounds perfectly normal to me. I only started to like my family after I left home and wasn't with them every day. Now all my brothers and my sister are part of my network of friends and I class them as 'great people I know'. You do need to escape at some point as you are needing to start your own life and lead it your own way. This is a normal progression to adulthood and it quite often causes tensions in households. My mother let me leave home the moment I turned 16 as I was like you - very full of conflicting emotions and quite difficult to live with! I loved my freedom and worked hard and enjoyed myself. I visited home infrequently at the start but now I keep regular contact with my family. You do need to keep all your self-created characters in check though. If they start to create havoc you may never be stable enough to have your own life. Let the best one shine out and plan for your future. Good luck.
I have similar problems to you, trust me, but maybe in different ways.
My mother does not care less about me she lives in another town to me. My father is selfish and violent, or too nice and funny and it gets on my nerves.
My sister manipulates everything to get what she wants.
And i get ignored.
Oh yeah n i hav an older sis in another town too but she never lived with me anyway she's a half sis so that's okay.
They constantly annoy me, but i manage to live with it.
Im 15 now, n when i move out i'll be glad. But i'll still come backn see em cos at the end of the day
these people have cared at times when i've needed it, and it would be tough without them, and our silly arguments, because in family there is love.
Love seems to give us all the power to do anything. It's amazing what we do for the ones we really care about isn't it?
You need to seek professional help. Then get down on your knees and pray. Prayer opens many doors.
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