What is wrong with me?
Question:
i would rather cry then smile
i would rather be in the darkest depths of the earth then in a warm room
im sick of stuff i used to love
all of a sudden my favorite foods are the foods i can't stand
i am so used to my cats fighting but now i just want to stangle them
i feel like im always stressed and being blaimed for every thing
just the other day some one got mad at me for something that happened due to nature
sometimes i continue conversations w/ people by myself and i dont even notice til its over
i have suicidal thoughts and want to hurt myself
and only my best friend believes me not even my parents do
ive always been the outcast and for a wile i was starting to fit in now i feel like this i have never cared wat ppl think up until now
Answers:
Oh Honey ... why doesn't anyone hear you?!? Well guess what? I do! I hear you loud and clear! What you are describing is more than adolescence, and it's more than moodiness, and it's more than just hormones. What you are describing is real depression and you need to see a doctor! Even if you don't take any medication for it, just knowing someone believes you can be a comfort! (I know! I've been there. I even had a complete meltdown at one point.) I can "kind of" understand your parents not believing you about having suicidal thoughts and wanting to hurt yourself ... either they don't know enough to know that you are really crying out for help, or maybe they are so afraid that it could be true ... but one other thing is that adults KNOW that sometimes we ALL get really fed up with life and want to just quit, but normally that feeling passes (sometimes not for a long time, but it usually passes). MAYBE they are just waiting things out to see if this is a real depression, or if it's normal feelings that will eventually pass. We parents are scared of looking foolish for acting TOO worried when something is actually "normal." But we're just as scared of ignoring something, only to find out later it really WAS a problem.
My advice, dear one, is to try calmly tell your parents again ... it's usually better to tell the one who actual has a history of DEALING WITH PROBLEMS! Don't tell the one who you're closest to if that one isn't used to doing things like making doctor's appointments, etc. You need to have a heart-to-heart with the one who makes things happen at home! No screaming! No yelling at them that they never listen to you! This is one of those times you'll have to step up and be mature.
AND THEN, if they don't listen, you may have to take things into your own hands! You already recognize that you need help, and you've started the ball rolling by writing about it on here. Do you know the name of your doctor? If so, find their phone number in the phone book (have a friend help if you don't know how) ... when someone answers, just tell them "This is _____ so and so. I'm ---years-old. I'm having feelings that scare me and I need to talk to someone, but my parents won't help me."
If you don't know who your doctor is, or if you don't have one, call any doctor in the phone book and tell them the same thing. And tell them you don't have a family doctor.
OR --- you could always call the Suicide Prevention Hotline.
1-800-273-TALK (8255).
OR --- visit this website:
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org...
And you can always contact me: jhssn914@yahoo.com
Just call me MamaJane ... I don't even know you and already I love you. I love anyone brave enough to scream for help!
it sounds like you're depressed. maybe you just need to talk to someone, maybe you need a little more help than that, but you can get through it. many people have, including myself.
wow..sounds like how i used to be...umm.there isn't anything WRONG with u.but u should love ur life...im not religious but a friend once told me that god put u here on the earth for a purpose..just some of us haven't found them yet. tell ur parents ur serious...if they laugh then that's there own loss because ur parents should love u for who u are and trust and listen to u...
read up on severe depression and bi polar disorder. Go see a counselor, get diagnosed. You may have a chemical imbalance, or you could just be bored with where you're life is at which leads you to depression.
Help yourself and dont allow yourself to sink into the black hole
More Questions & Answers...