Bipolar testimonials?
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Here's an example of the kind of information I'm looking for:
http://www.livingmanicdepressive.com/c_0...
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OK, here is my story when I am in the mania stage:
I could go without sleep for 3 or 4 days and think nothing of it. Why? Because I was constantly doing something. Even though I am not a drinker I would stay in the bars till 4 in the morning dancing. I would come home shower, put on make-up and go to work. I was doing to work of 2 employees at an unbelievable speed that even I couldn't believe. I ended up getting a part time job besides my full time job, never missing a day or ever being late for work.
Sex, well as often as possible and, unfortunately, sometimes with virtual strangers. That didn't bother me because I could care less if I ever saw these men again. consequences were non existence since I had the "so what" attitude, I could survive anything.
I went so deep into debt buying jewelry, that I would never wear, and clothes. I would buy a new outfit for every evening I would go out. If I didn't go out I would go running for miles. When I would get to tired to run I would just walk. This would be for hours at a time. My body was in great shape which was another high since I felt good in all my new clothes.
I could eat all I wanted and never gain an ounce.
Talk, talk, talk, and talk some more. I was a social butterfly. I would go to several parties each weekend as I was the life of the party. After wards, if they ended to early, I would hit the bars and dance the night away.
To say I was popular would be putting it mildly. this is probably the only advantage I can think of when I am in this mood.
This question is a bit hard but I will try to answer. I have only had one severe manic episode so there is not heaps to go on but here goes
I felt so energetic everything I did was easy.
I didn't really feel pain, I had just had surgury on my foot and was supposed to be on crutches for 6 months but after three weeks I was hardly using them, I still had pins and things in my foot but it just didnt hurt and I had to much to do to worry about a walking aid.
I had grand business ideas I was running around constantly making deals and arrangments majority actually worked out really well a few were a but to far but it all just felt so right. I even got two new jobs in the middle of my episode so I was working one full time job and two casual. I lost all of them when I my mum got me involanterally admitted to a mental ward and no-one called them to let them know I would not be in,.
I went on a mega shopping spree and bought like 15 new outfits (not really expensive ones). The were all more colourfull and a bit out there but it was all the things I wanted to try but was worried I could not pull it off, but I did and got heaps of compliments.
I got fidgety I liked doing things with my hands and just got urges to walk for miles.
I was very quick to temper although I didn't realise it. I was more agressive and assertive in conversations, where I was usually submissive due to depression. I would crave a fight, walk down the street hoping that someone would say something or try to provoke me. I didn't care if they hurt me aslong as I hurt them.
I was a sex maniac, I just couldn't get enough.
And I was really social.
There is probibly more but that is the basic jist of it. Manic feels so good, but I found as far as you go up is as far as you go down, so you are somewhat aware that the more you enjoy your manic the harder you will fall into depression. It really is different for everyone.
I now nmanage my bi-polar and nobody notices anything different about me. I was on med for eight months but am now off them again as I am pregnant. None of my friends or family know I am off them, and nobody has noticed a change. I know they would tell me if they did, especially my dad cos he is bi-polar to.
I have 19 yrs experience being bipolar, noway could it fit in here.
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