Bottled up depression?

Question:

I'm not sure where to begin. I'm only 15 and for about the past 3 years i have been dealing with depression. I finally told a friend about a yr and a 1/2 ago and she helped me tell my mom and then I went to a therapist last year. The trouble I have is opening up to people and after only 2 sessions I lied about the severity and effects that the depression is having on me, so she told me I was fine and didn't need to see her. Since then I haven't talked to anyone else about what's been going on because for a few months I felt better. Things have taken a complete turn around though and I have been crying every night again, feeling not good enough, and just at random times just having panic attacks. I always feel anxious and frustrated over nothing and can't sleep. I know I should tell someone, but beyond this I'm not sure where to even begin. I'm not comfortable talking to my parents and just need help. I don't know what my question is... but anything's appreciated at this point.

Answers:
Depression can come and go in a persons life, it gets bad and then at times is not there, I have had depression for 20 years now, and it does that to me.
Since you know this now maybe you could tell your mom that it has come back.
If you are in school, you could tell a counselor that you are suffering depression and see if they could lead you to a therapist, or a Pastor, or Group leader.
You could also call the Local Mental Health, or Familiy Dr. if you have one.

Lack of good sleep can cause panic attacks, and make them worse, you need to talk with someone so at least you can sleep at night.

NAMI has a lot of information on their site, and numbers to obtain help for various problems. You could also find information on there about approaching your mom about this.

Good Luck, life is so much better happy.

Hi, I think alot of the answers for you are in your question ! You've seen a therapist and admit you felt better for awhile. So that's a place for you" to begin". Get it started again...take control. Find anybody else you can talk to in the mean time. IM me under mysihba in Yahoo if you like. You already know you have to talk...about it, and you know you have enough signs and symptoms that they need addressed...so just do it. You did it once, start again. The longer you wait the worse it will get.

Hey, hey, hey, it's okay, it's okay. Talk about the blind helping the blind here. The whole thing about opening up to people, especially therapists, are normal. I must've went through five before I found one who I can connect with. I used to be in the exact same position and age you are, except I didn't have therapists, pills, or anyone else to talk to. I didn't even know I was depressed until I was diagnosed with it when I was 18.

It was then that I was taking sertraline that controls the serotonin levels that helps me sleep. Ask your doctor to prescribe you some. You don't even have to talk to him or her, but I have to warn you now, this is only a temporary fix.

If you don't mind my asking, are you diagnosed with dysthemia? That's the exact problem I was diagnosed with. Trust me, it's both a curse and a gift. Curse for obvious reasons, but in my line of work (law enforcement), it's a gift and I use it well. Because of our unorthodox way of thinking, I can think of ways of handling situations that no one has ever dreamed of (think confusing the person you're trying to defuse). Sure, it's gotten me in hot water before, but the ends justifies the means.

This alone has been very theraputic to my "recovery," just knowing that I can do things to help others. My advice would be to find something that you do and do well (legally...I don't want to slap cuffs on you lol), and just run with it. Don't let anybody stop you. Good luck.

Bottled up depression?

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